When Rob's dad had a car accident we all arrived one evening and the documents were signed to unplug him from the machine keeping him alive. The last to arrive at 1130 was Ricky and he said lets give dad the night, he is not suffering and so in the morning we can all say goodbye and unplug the machine. The dad died that night.
I don't know if a higher power decides, or if Rob's dad decided. I know we did not.
Today thought I did decide on life and death with Bam Bam!
Every week Rob and I said next week, and next week we said the following and so forth.
For weeks we have been cleaning dried tears from his cute little face and eyes. As I look back I think he was crying, hoping we would let him go. He no longer knew us, could not see, smell or hear. But we could not let him go. He was part of us!!!!!!!
Today I went to clean his tears! They were different they were very watery dripping down to his mouth! I hurried to get a damp cloth and assist him and realized his eye was on my towel. I panicked cried and called my savior, Rob who came home and made sure I was ok with letting him go. I don’t like playing the part and I hope I never have to but today I, yes I decided on life or death. It will stay with me until the day I go. May Bam Bam be in peace for fever he lives in us!
Goodbye Bam Bam
Your Dad's
A common sense approach to current events, challenges ahead and hot topics from two different perspectives Queens.
No comments:
Post a Comment