Celebrating Birth and Remembering Death!

I find this an interesting topic for Rob and I have very different opinions both of which I believe are accurate! For instance in some cultures they celebrate death and even have holidays for the dead this would include Portugal and Mexico and Brazil. I believe New Orleans also has such a celebration. And of course we all, especially advanced countries celebrate the both of animals, our children and even have birthdays for beer!

And so is my dilemma today! 32 years ago an imaginable thing happened! According to my plan my son Shaun was born! Ge was such in the rush to come into eath that he was born in the emergency room! To time to prepare his mother. She barely made it to the hospital, he wanted out! For the last 32 years there have been challenges with my son mostly because in life he has takes the same attitude, "just do it"!, he created that trademark before Reebok embrace it!

Then there in the 30 day memory of my mothers death which happens to be today on March 3rd. As you see I am writing this at 4 am! I can't sleep, every thought is my mother! Who do I call for old receipts, to go for breakfast, to help me with and old medical potion that only mothers know when you're sick!

My daughter said recently "I remember when I had hiccups and grandma accused me of taking money from her wallet, I said grandma I did not take it! Grandma said don;t lie where is my money and of course I not knowing said , Sherry give you're grandmother he money back! Sherry said Dad I did not take the money! Then my mother said what happened to you're hiccups! Sherry said oh their gone! Scare the hiccups out of my daughter! That was my mother!

I love taking pictures so my mother is in every room and yesterday I saw her in a vision smiling at me from a time I can barely remember! It's like she was telling me it's ok!Just like that vision I sometimes think this is a dream! But I know its not I held her head until they took her away from me forever.

She asked me to make her this Portuguese chicken soup that takes 3 hours to cook and she said " my son I can do that in an hour" I said mom mine is done with time and lots of love, it's for you! I went to kiss here and she pushed me away as to say you have to let me go, but I insisted and she kissed me!

As I drove away my brother was taking he r with the walker to get the mail. I saw her from my rer view mirror as I drove away to go home for Robert. On February 3rd as usual I was up listening to my headset (usually very happy music, looking at my garden (we always had a challenge who's garden was better) and I got that dreadful call!

On march 3 I was working 3rd shift and I got a call from Isabel her waters broke and I made my way home from Texas Instruments and when I got home her mother was there. I took Isabel to the hospital and she informs me he is coming out! We got to the emergency room and they put my wife on a bed and Shaun with no problem was born!

And so today I celebrate my son turning 32! One of a very few days in my life I can call incredible! Today I think of the death of my mother, one of the saddest days in my life.

A wise man once told me "if you can have more happy days than sad ones, you're doing good in life"! I can say I do, but until this hole in my heart heals and this lump in my throat goes away sades prevails!

So Happy Birthday my only son and Mom see you soon! You look good in that vision with killer heels! Happy you can wear them again!

Dr Q