Last week as you all know was very dramatic for me and Rob. I am sure that it also in someway effected all those close to us. Even my mother, not being an animal lover, was touched by the passing of Bam Bam. More that anything else, was how heis last moments were. A tragerdy that I somehow feel I let develop. My love for him was smuch, I could not let go! But it was time.
It reminds us how quick life can change. We are all animals! All of us face one certanty in life.... DEATH! It's not a bad ending as long as, if possible, the ending can be somewhat controled. That is why, I believe in assisted suicide. I think we should have the right to decide when and how we go, especially if dealing with a terminal illness.
Bam Bam had to wait on me and those last days/hours were so sad, I cannot get them out of my mind! I look at a time when my ashes arrive and reality doesn't have to kick in! It's planned on my mind, but will it be executed as I want it. Well time will tell.
I am glad we have his ashes and now my blogs can focus on other issues delaing with our existance, politics, religion etc. But until I can move beyond this deep gut feeling of sorrow, for something so loving and in some ways my friend, i will tend to regress and speak about him. My little Boy, Bam Bam!
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