A common sense approach to current events, challenges ahead and hot topics from two different perspectives Queens.
Friday, October 26, 2012
A View From Two Queens: Desire to be President, Obama's first debate!
A View From Two Queens: Desire to be President, Obama's first debate!: I don't know what everyone felt but I for one though being a very strong supporter of the president felt he no longer had the desire to be p...
Desire to be President, Obama's first debate!
I don't know what everyone felt but I for one though being a very strong supporter of the president felt he no longer had the desire to be president on his first debate!
I know unlike Romney he has allot on his mind, but I felt as though he tho thought "why am I here"! "Is this worth it," "just retire and get you're benefits and let someone else deal with the shit"!
Well that is my opinion on the first debate! Yes he came back fighting with gusto and I believe is the best for this country going forth! Nevertheless whomever wins we have lot's of issues and challenges! Romney will get us into more trouble than anyone can imagine! It will take years just to learn the job and then as he starts maybe making some good decisions he is up for re-election.
We in this country need to change our presidents to a 6 year one term election! This way they focus on the job for one term and have 6 years to either make it work or not!
If I was the president I too would feel, shit I get treated by the people like crap after keeping them out of a great depression! People forget Mr. President so maybe take the benefits and have fun enjoying life and with you're family! Let another screwed up republican ruin this country! It seems we like it that way!
I know unlike Romney he has allot on his mind, but I felt as though he tho thought "why am I here"! "Is this worth it," "just retire and get you're benefits and let someone else deal with the shit"!
Well that is my opinion on the first debate! Yes he came back fighting with gusto and I believe is the best for this country going forth! Nevertheless whomever wins we have lot's of issues and challenges! Romney will get us into more trouble than anyone can imagine! It will take years just to learn the job and then as he starts maybe making some good decisions he is up for re-election.
We in this country need to change our presidents to a 6 year one term election! This way they focus on the job for one term and have 6 years to either make it work or not!
If I was the president I too would feel, shit I get treated by the people like crap after keeping them out of a great depression! People forget Mr. President so maybe take the benefits and have fun enjoying life and with you're family! Let another screwed up republican ruin this country! It seems we like it that way!
Saturday, June 16, 2012
A View From Two Queens: Our next journey!
A View From Two Queens: Our next journey!: Our next journey begins by October 1st. It's a journey that takes us to Wilton Manners, Fort Lauderdale right in the middle of Gay central! ...
Our next journey!
Our next journey begins by October 1st. It's a journey that takes us to Wilton Manners, Fort Lauderdale right in the middle of Gay central! It's not something we were looking for but it landed on our laps!
It's amazing what you find getting a haircut! It's quaint small and comes with a pool! If you think of it it's perfect! However it means downsizing from a 3 bedroom with 3 kitchens to 2 bedroom one bath and a small kitchen. It will make life more simple and in my health condition its the route we should take.
But I have mixed emotions! When I am there I love it! When I am here I don;t want to leave! My mom died here and it's like I'm abandoning her!
So much emotions it keeps me up and I worry so much about living in a tight space in gay central!
Rob has always wonted to live in Ptown or Key West, well this place looks like we are there. It's very quaint and nice! And with our touch it will be 100% better!
So it's a go on our side! We soon will say good-bye to Hudson and hello Fort Lauderdale!Rob's family is there and we need to be closer to fa=mil;y, at least I do!
I always say I don't want to move again but here we are moving after 3 years in Hudson. When mom died the reason for being here ceased and so we have to move on!
I ask the creator to watch over me and rob and see that this is a good move and help us stay focused on life's good things and never forget we are moving for family!
Love
Dr Q
It's amazing what you find getting a haircut! It's quaint small and comes with a pool! If you think of it it's perfect! However it means downsizing from a 3 bedroom with 3 kitchens to 2 bedroom one bath and a small kitchen. It will make life more simple and in my health condition its the route we should take.
But I have mixed emotions! When I am there I love it! When I am here I don;t want to leave! My mom died here and it's like I'm abandoning her!
So much emotions it keeps me up and I worry so much about living in a tight space in gay central!
Rob has always wonted to live in Ptown or Key West, well this place looks like we are there. It's very quaint and nice! And with our touch it will be 100% better!
So it's a go on our side! We soon will say good-bye to Hudson and hello Fort Lauderdale!Rob's family is there and we need to be closer to fa=mil;y, at least I do!
I always say I don't want to move again but here we are moving after 3 years in Hudson. When mom died the reason for being here ceased and so we have to move on!
I ask the creator to watch over me and rob and see that this is a good move and help us stay focused on life's good things and never forget we are moving for family!
Love
Dr Q
Saturday, May 12, 2012
A View From Two Queens: Two Edge (family) Sword!
A View From Two Queens: Two Edge (family) Sword!: Abilio: Family has always played a major part of my life! You can actually say that I have never been alone (different than feeling alone)! ...
Two Edge (family) Sword!
Abilio: Family has always played a major part of my life! You can actually say that I have never been alone (different than feeling alone)! I went from living with my mother to living with my x wife to living with Robert! Through the last almost 54 years I have always been surrounded by family, that is until my mother died.
And so for the first time in my life though I have Robert I don;t have a family around me! I am not one to live without a family around me! It becomes depressing and sometimes makes me thing of self destructive ideas. Loneliness is the worst disease to face mankind! You can feel it even when YOU do have family around! But you definitively feel it when you don't!
On February 3d 2012 I lost my mother and in the process due top greed my sister and brother too! It's unfortunate that family can't deal with challenges that face us all including disagreements on decision that effect those we love. You would think this would drive me away from my family, but it doesn't! It draws me closer for I want to say "It's ok in a family to have deep seated feelings and disagree should be encouraged so that you're heard"! Hudson is now a lonely place! Yes we have a huge home and every thing we need to live a comfortable life! But missing is a family and the drama associated with it!
So I need to go back to where I left my heart two years ago to come spend time with my mother! People who know me well, know exactly what I mean!
Robert:: I left home when I turned 18 and supported myself and lived either alone or roomed with friends. I love my family but unlike Joe it's not as important to me! I don't like the drama that comes with family!
But as I have aged and lived with Joe I understand the respect he has for family and the role they play in having a happy life! I totally agree with Joe that one has to be where one's heart is and that even with the drama we had with our family in Miami, it's the family that the creator has given to us!
My sister once said, you need family when all is said and done! She was right! Loraine seems to always be right even when I think she is wrong! It's after all family!
Till we chat again
Joe/Rob
And so for the first time in my life though I have Robert I don;t have a family around me! I am not one to live without a family around me! It becomes depressing and sometimes makes me thing of self destructive ideas. Loneliness is the worst disease to face mankind! You can feel it even when YOU do have family around! But you definitively feel it when you don't!
On February 3d 2012 I lost my mother and in the process due top greed my sister and brother too! It's unfortunate that family can't deal with challenges that face us all including disagreements on decision that effect those we love. You would think this would drive me away from my family, but it doesn't! It draws me closer for I want to say "It's ok in a family to have deep seated feelings and disagree should be encouraged so that you're heard"! Hudson is now a lonely place! Yes we have a huge home and every thing we need to live a comfortable life! But missing is a family and the drama associated with it!
So I need to go back to where I left my heart two years ago to come spend time with my mother! People who know me well, know exactly what I mean!
Robert:: I left home when I turned 18 and supported myself and lived either alone or roomed with friends. I love my family but unlike Joe it's not as important to me! I don't like the drama that comes with family!
But as I have aged and lived with Joe I understand the respect he has for family and the role they play in having a happy life! I totally agree with Joe that one has to be where one's heart is and that even with the drama we had with our family in Miami, it's the family that the creator has given to us!
My sister once said, you need family when all is said and done! She was right! Loraine seems to always be right even when I think she is wrong! It's after all family!
Till we chat again
Joe/Rob
Saturday, May 5, 2012
A View From Two Queens: Get more sleep and Energy
A View From Two Queens: Get more sleep and Energy: Robert can sleep on the train, car, airplane and even sitting in the hot sun! So articles such as this one do not apply to people like Rober...
Get more sleep and Energy
Robert can sleep on the train, car, airplane and even sitting in the hot sun! So articles such as this one do not apply to people like Robert! These people actually may sleep too much, tend to be relaxed and not have a worry in the world even if the world is collapsing.
Then thee those folks like me that need medication and all kinds of therapy and even then maybe get 4-6 hours of sleep! I have some tips I will follow and they are as follows:
Change you're bed sheets: Sven out of ten people say they get a better night sleep when the sheets are changed! Also make you're bed! Most people get relaxed when they climb into a dressed up bed even if done just before you go to sleep! (thanks mom you were right)
Take you're vitamins in the morning such as B12 can alter you're sleep patterns
No afternoon coffee: Coffee, tea or dark chocolate can effect you're needed deep sleep!
Nix naps: if you have a hard time sleeping at night, don't add to injury by napping during the day!
Ditch the smart phone TV or any bedroom lights an hour before going to sleep.
Practice letting Go: If you can leave you're challenges at the bedroom door you can sleep better.
Hire a handyman: You must have no noise while sleeping so a noisy radiator or fan cal effect you're deep sleep. Also any construction going on, get some ear plugs.
Avoid over the counter sleeping aids: These tend to make you drowsy but do not assist with deep sleep you need.
Strike a pose: Try yoga and relaxation before sleeping! It relax the body and mind.
Keep cool: I find this one interesting! The temperature you're room should be at night is between 60-68!
Take it from someone who has tried all of the above except yoga. Yes I agree I sleep better at 60 degrees. But keeping you're house at 60 degrees at night would cost us tremendous amount of monies for electricity here in Florida. Unfortunately we do not have dual systems where I can control the room from the house but its woreth looking into!
Other than that its advice as we all try to get a better nights sleep. By the way I am writing this blog at 4:30 am after sleeping an interrupted 6 hours.
Chat soon
Dr Q
Then thee those folks like me that need medication and all kinds of therapy and even then maybe get 4-6 hours of sleep! I have some tips I will follow and they are as follows:
Change you're bed sheets: Sven out of ten people say they get a better night sleep when the sheets are changed! Also make you're bed! Most people get relaxed when they climb into a dressed up bed even if done just before you go to sleep! (thanks mom you were right)
Take you're vitamins in the morning such as B12 can alter you're sleep patterns
No afternoon coffee: Coffee, tea or dark chocolate can effect you're needed deep sleep!
Nix naps: if you have a hard time sleeping at night, don't add to injury by napping during the day!
Ditch the smart phone TV or any bedroom lights an hour before going to sleep.
Practice letting Go: If you can leave you're challenges at the bedroom door you can sleep better.
Hire a handyman: You must have no noise while sleeping so a noisy radiator or fan cal effect you're deep sleep. Also any construction going on, get some ear plugs.
Avoid over the counter sleeping aids: These tend to make you drowsy but do not assist with deep sleep you need.
Strike a pose: Try yoga and relaxation before sleeping! It relax the body and mind.
Keep cool: I find this one interesting! The temperature you're room should be at night is between 60-68!
Take it from someone who has tried all of the above except yoga. Yes I agree I sleep better at 60 degrees. But keeping you're house at 60 degrees at night would cost us tremendous amount of monies for electricity here in Florida. Unfortunately we do not have dual systems where I can control the room from the house but its woreth looking into!
Other than that its advice as we all try to get a better nights sleep. By the way I am writing this blog at 4:30 am after sleeping an interrupted 6 hours.
Chat soon
Dr Q
Thursday, April 26, 2012
A View From Two Queens: The Need For Family and/or The Need For Friends!
A View From Two Queens: The Need For Family and/or The Need For Friends!: Rob and I disagree on this subject! I should say we agree to disagree! Depending on his mood he sees a need for both. But importunately not ...
The Need For Family and/or The Need For Friends!
Rob and I disagree on this subject! I should say we agree to disagree! Depending on his mood he sees a need for both. But importunately not all families are alike and its what causes him to waver on his deep hidden feelings!
My mother adored Robert, yes adored! Sometimes I used to kid with my mom that her love for ROBERT was stronger than for me. I never, ever felt that but was nice to know she loved and adored the man in my life!So much so that my aunt recently in tears said, Joe's mothered adored you! And yes those who know Robert know how easy it is to love him. Well unless you live with him! Kidding!
My mother always was busy with family when we were younger! We were with the Arraoil's in major street family fights in Taunton or the DeSousa's in Providence BBQ'g! They were family and it was one or the other until my aunt died in Providence, then things kind of settled down. Of course JW's came into the picture and family was forbidden and shunned because they did not share our belief! Stupidity!
As my mother aged family again became very important! You notice I say family not friends. You see friends play a role in our life, but when things get tough very few hang around. Most are very centered focused (especially gay friends)! family just does what it has to do! It's family!
However, though family will come to you're aid during crisis, its beneficial to have a relationship with them. But even if not, family is family! I have learned this as Rob's family embraces me and mine embraced Robert!
Of course, with my mom gone its changed! I have lost most, if not all of my family! And as my sister faces an uncertain future, it will only get worse on my side. But I focus on a large family Rob has. They like my mother have embraced me and I feel they like my mom adore me. Though Rob has some deep seeded issues, I feel very comfortable with them.
So it's very simple! Friends play a critical role in you're life! But when all is said and done, you better have a family or when you get older it gets very lonely!
Dr Q
Chat soon!
My mother adored Robert, yes adored! Sometimes I used to kid with my mom that her love for ROBERT was stronger than for me. I never, ever felt that but was nice to know she loved and adored the man in my life!So much so that my aunt recently in tears said, Joe's mothered adored you! And yes those who know Robert know how easy it is to love him. Well unless you live with him! Kidding!
My mother always was busy with family when we were younger! We were with the Arraoil's in major street family fights in Taunton or the DeSousa's in Providence BBQ'g! They were family and it was one or the other until my aunt died in Providence, then things kind of settled down. Of course JW's came into the picture and family was forbidden and shunned because they did not share our belief! Stupidity!
As my mother aged family again became very important! You notice I say family not friends. You see friends play a role in our life, but when things get tough very few hang around. Most are very centered focused (especially gay friends)! family just does what it has to do! It's family!
However, though family will come to you're aid during crisis, its beneficial to have a relationship with them. But even if not, family is family! I have learned this as Rob's family embraces me and mine embraced Robert!
Of course, with my mom gone its changed! I have lost most, if not all of my family! And as my sister faces an uncertain future, it will only get worse on my side. But I focus on a large family Rob has. They like my mother have embraced me and I feel they like my mom adore me. Though Rob has some deep seeded issues, I feel very comfortable with them.
So it's very simple! Friends play a critical role in you're life! But when all is said and done, you better have a family or when you get older it gets very lonely!
Dr Q
Chat soon!
Saturday, April 7, 2012
A View From Two Queens: 14 years of bliss or misery?
A View From Two Queens: 14 years of bliss or misery?: Yup we are coming up on 14 years together, people often equate it to dog years and therefore we are coming up on 98 years! Well the question...
14 years of bliss or misery?
Yup we are coming up on 14 years together, people often equate it to dog years and therefore we are coming up on 98 years! Well the question to us is it has it been bliss or misery?
Rob and I have different opinions on this! Overall we agree it's bliss but he often goes back to early years when to him it was misery! I have forgotten those early years! I tend to be very forward focused. unless I am on the verge of a breakdown then I can't help but focus on the past!
Rob's early views (by Joe): I was always breaking up (for good reasons)! He always refused to leave (for good reasons). I was very controlling (for a good reason, he was always a follower (for a good reason)! I drank allot (for a good reason), He always took too many drugs, (for a good reason)!
I was worried about my family though I did not show it, he was worried about his friends and he showed it! We worked this out! I loved sex too MANY times a day he did not. This was the hardest thing I had to adjust!I was in love, he learned to love (good for him, created stability something he never experienced).
Life took us across country twice and we learned what it's like to react to life's needs and to focus on new beginnings! This was easy for me and hard for Rob. In the process we lost allot of material things he just left behind (reminds me of my brother) but it taught him responsibility! It taught me to let go and give someone control of my life. It was preparing me for today as Rob has "Power of Attorney" over me!
To me it's been a blessed 14 years! The good outweigh the bad! The NJ registration, the Miami wedding, and the first time I met him is what I focus on! To the future I look at traveling with him and eventually dying together though the creator may have other plans, I tend to get what I want!
Joe's early views (by Rob): Everything is his way or no way (still today). I refused to leave because I knew it was a stable relationship (we vowed never to break up). two men together should not have a (girls or boys night out) without the the other one being present.
They say who you meet in life makes the person you are today! Therefore I am glad I met Rob as I am sure Rob met me! For today we have a thriving relationship because of each other.
Chat soon!
Dr Q
Rob and I have different opinions on this! Overall we agree it's bliss but he often goes back to early years when to him it was misery! I have forgotten those early years! I tend to be very forward focused. unless I am on the verge of a breakdown then I can't help but focus on the past!
Rob's early views (by Joe): I was always breaking up (for good reasons)! He always refused to leave (for good reasons). I was very controlling (for a good reason, he was always a follower (for a good reason)! I drank allot (for a good reason), He always took too many drugs, (for a good reason)!
I was worried about my family though I did not show it, he was worried about his friends and he showed it! We worked this out! I loved sex too MANY times a day he did not. This was the hardest thing I had to adjust!I was in love, he learned to love (good for him, created stability something he never experienced).
Life took us across country twice and we learned what it's like to react to life's needs and to focus on new beginnings! This was easy for me and hard for Rob. In the process we lost allot of material things he just left behind (reminds me of my brother) but it taught him responsibility! It taught me to let go and give someone control of my life. It was preparing me for today as Rob has "Power of Attorney" over me!
To me it's been a blessed 14 years! The good outweigh the bad! The NJ registration, the Miami wedding, and the first time I met him is what I focus on! To the future I look at traveling with him and eventually dying together though the creator may have other plans, I tend to get what I want!
Joe's early views (by Rob): Everything is his way or no way (still today). I refused to leave because I knew it was a stable relationship (we vowed never to break up). two men together should not have a (girls or boys night out) without the the other one being present.
They say who you meet in life makes the person you are today! Therefore I am glad I met Rob as I am sure Rob met me! For today we have a thriving relationship because of each other.
Chat soon!
Dr Q
Tuesday, April 3, 2012
The past 60 days without MOM!
Well Bette Midler has a remake of a song appropriate for these notes, it's called, "Hello In There"!
It's a song about life and getting old! It's appropriate for eventually besides the hollow eyes we end up with and the sadness as we lose loved ones and eventually ending with us, we all have a responsibility to keeping an eye on the older ones as times takes their youth away!
I am in that cycle as was my mother before her death. Yes, I saw the hollow eyes and it was over! Lets all take time to say "hello in there" to everyone passing by but especially those up in years!
It's been tough mom! It's been lonely in Hudson! When you left the core fell apart!You would think one of us would of taken over from you, but that was not part of the plan! Everyone has their interest, their agenda and you kept us together somehow! I am sorry I could not be the one! I sometimes wish I was a core that kept a family together, but that's not my role in life it seems. I could keep a group of 500 people focused on a goal at work, but cannot keep a family of 3 together.
Rob and I bought a new car, we settled with the insurances and the two accidents. That in itself had it's challenges! Their is no money in accidents! When you get done you have bad health and nothing to enjoy life a little bit more!
One never plans for the death of their father and mother! I am glad I always saw you as if everyday was you're last and appreciated you as such! And even though we planned as such, the plan was not in writing and it fell apart!Sometimes I walk the block with Bette and I look for someone to say "hello in there"! But this is Hudson and most of the neighbors are looking for the same thing! So I reach out and in the process somehow help myself "in there"!
I see a therapist, but the economy or world in general is bad so he is also too busy to see me weekly! Now I plan ahead to see him but sometimes I am so sick I can't get out of bed. Doctor's have become a challenge, because I am a challenge!
Their has been rumor's of my various illness, but if people knew that sometimes the pain is loneliness! People don't realize "loneliness" is the number one cause of death in the world! It's a mental thing mom! We never could keep still! But in 60 days that has changed so much as you said it would! Leaving the house is a challenge! The thought of why, just why am I here, but to bother people is in my mind daily!
Well we will make it to the 90 days and then 6 months and no doubt a year! We have plans to go see the kids in Boston and if all works well Madeira so Rob can see where I was born! We do little monthly trips to nearby to keep me going. I live for Rob, the man you adored I adore also! Youre right mom, he is a keeper!
Love and missed you are!
You're son!
It's a song about life and getting old! It's appropriate for eventually besides the hollow eyes we end up with and the sadness as we lose loved ones and eventually ending with us, we all have a responsibility to keeping an eye on the older ones as times takes their youth away!
I am in that cycle as was my mother before her death. Yes, I saw the hollow eyes and it was over! Lets all take time to say "hello in there" to everyone passing by but especially those up in years!
It's been tough mom! It's been lonely in Hudson! When you left the core fell apart!You would think one of us would of taken over from you, but that was not part of the plan! Everyone has their interest, their agenda and you kept us together somehow! I am sorry I could not be the one! I sometimes wish I was a core that kept a family together, but that's not my role in life it seems. I could keep a group of 500 people focused on a goal at work, but cannot keep a family of 3 together.
Rob and I bought a new car, we settled with the insurances and the two accidents. That in itself had it's challenges! Their is no money in accidents! When you get done you have bad health and nothing to enjoy life a little bit more!
One never plans for the death of their father and mother! I am glad I always saw you as if everyday was you're last and appreciated you as such! And even though we planned as such, the plan was not in writing and it fell apart!Sometimes I walk the block with Bette and I look for someone to say "hello in there"! But this is Hudson and most of the neighbors are looking for the same thing! So I reach out and in the process somehow help myself "in there"!
I see a therapist, but the economy or world in general is bad so he is also too busy to see me weekly! Now I plan ahead to see him but sometimes I am so sick I can't get out of bed. Doctor's have become a challenge, because I am a challenge!
Their has been rumor's of my various illness, but if people knew that sometimes the pain is loneliness! People don't realize "loneliness" is the number one cause of death in the world! It's a mental thing mom! We never could keep still! But in 60 days that has changed so much as you said it would! Leaving the house is a challenge! The thought of why, just why am I here, but to bother people is in my mind daily!
Well we will make it to the 90 days and then 6 months and no doubt a year! We have plans to go see the kids in Boston and if all works well Madeira so Rob can see where I was born! We do little monthly trips to nearby to keep me going. I live for Rob, the man you adored I adore also! Youre right mom, he is a keeper!
Love and missed you are!
You're son!
Remembering my mom!
Remembering my mother
Mother,
as I walk through the journey of life,
I remember.
I remember how you helped me to grow
with love, truth, and honesty.
I remember how you helped me to choose the right path
with values, morals, and self worth.
I remember how you gave me dreams
with hope and confidence.
As I remember,
I prayed to be a father like you were my mother,
to shape my children into strong adults,
full of hopes and dreams.
You made me who I am today,
and I will always remember you in life's passings
for no one could touch my life as you have.
as I walk through the journey of life,
I remember.
I remember how you helped me to grow
with love, truth, and honesty.
I remember how you helped me to choose the right path
with values, morals, and self worth.
I remember how you gave me dreams
with hope and confidence.
As I remember,
I prayed to be a father like you were my mother,
to shape my children into strong adults,
full of hopes and dreams.
You made me who I am today,
and I will always remember you in life's passings
for no one could touch my life as you have.
Saturday, March 3, 2012
A View From Two Queens: Celebrating Birth and Remembering Death!
A View From Two Queens: Celebrating Birth and Remembering Death!: I find this an interesting topic for Rob and I have very different opinions both of which I believe are accurate! For instance in some cultu...
Celebrating Birth and Remembering Death!
I find this an interesting topic for Rob and I have very different opinions both of which I believe are accurate! For instance in some cultures they celebrate death and even have holidays for the dead this would include Portugal and Mexico and Brazil. I believe New Orleans also has such a celebration. And of course we all, especially advanced countries celebrate the both of animals, our children and even have birthdays for beer!
And so is my dilemma today! 32 years ago an imaginable thing happened! According to my plan my son Shaun was born! Ge was such in the rush to come into eath that he was born in the emergency room! To time to prepare his mother. She barely made it to the hospital, he wanted out! For the last 32 years there have been challenges with my son mostly because in life he has takes the same attitude, "just do it"!, he created that trademark before Reebok embrace it!
Then there in the 30 day memory of my mothers death which happens to be today on March 3rd. As you see I am writing this at 4 am! I can't sleep, every thought is my mother! Who do I call for old receipts, to go for breakfast, to help me with and old medical potion that only mothers know when you're sick!
My daughter said recently "I remember when I had hiccups and grandma accused me of taking money from her wallet, I said grandma I did not take it! Grandma said don;t lie where is my money and of course I not knowing said , Sherry give you're grandmother he money back! Sherry said Dad I did not take the money! Then my mother said what happened to you're hiccups! Sherry said oh their gone! Scare the hiccups out of my daughter! That was my mother!
I love taking pictures so my mother is in every room and yesterday I saw her in a vision smiling at me from a time I can barely remember! It's like she was telling me it's ok!Just like that vision I sometimes think this is a dream! But I know its not I held her head until they took her away from me forever.
She asked me to make her this Portuguese chicken soup that takes 3 hours to cook and she said " my son I can do that in an hour" I said mom mine is done with time and lots of love, it's for you! I went to kiss here and she pushed me away as to say you have to let me go, but I insisted and she kissed me!
As I drove away my brother was taking he r with the walker to get the mail. I saw her from my rer view mirror as I drove away to go home for Robert. On February 3rd as usual I was up listening to my headset (usually very happy music, looking at my garden (we always had a challenge who's garden was better) and I got that dreadful call!
On march 3 I was working 3rd shift and I got a call from Isabel her waters broke and I made my way home from Texas Instruments and when I got home her mother was there. I took Isabel to the hospital and she informs me he is coming out! We got to the emergency room and they put my wife on a bed and Shaun with no problem was born!
And so today I celebrate my son turning 32! One of a very few days in my life I can call incredible! Today I think of the death of my mother, one of the saddest days in my life.
A wise man once told me "if you can have more happy days than sad ones, you're doing good in life"! I can say I do, but until this hole in my heart heals and this lump in my throat goes away sades prevails!
So Happy Birthday my only son and Mom see you soon! You look good in that vision with killer heels! Happy you can wear them again!
Dr Q
And so is my dilemma today! 32 years ago an imaginable thing happened! According to my plan my son Shaun was born! Ge was such in the rush to come into eath that he was born in the emergency room! To time to prepare his mother. She barely made it to the hospital, he wanted out! For the last 32 years there have been challenges with my son mostly because in life he has takes the same attitude, "just do it"!, he created that trademark before Reebok embrace it!
Then there in the 30 day memory of my mothers death which happens to be today on March 3rd. As you see I am writing this at 4 am! I can't sleep, every thought is my mother! Who do I call for old receipts, to go for breakfast, to help me with and old medical potion that only mothers know when you're sick!
My daughter said recently "I remember when I had hiccups and grandma accused me of taking money from her wallet, I said grandma I did not take it! Grandma said don;t lie where is my money and of course I not knowing said , Sherry give you're grandmother he money back! Sherry said Dad I did not take the money! Then my mother said what happened to you're hiccups! Sherry said oh their gone! Scare the hiccups out of my daughter! That was my mother!
I love taking pictures so my mother is in every room and yesterday I saw her in a vision smiling at me from a time I can barely remember! It's like she was telling me it's ok!Just like that vision I sometimes think this is a dream! But I know its not I held her head until they took her away from me forever.
She asked me to make her this Portuguese chicken soup that takes 3 hours to cook and she said " my son I can do that in an hour" I said mom mine is done with time and lots of love, it's for you! I went to kiss here and she pushed me away as to say you have to let me go, but I insisted and she kissed me!
As I drove away my brother was taking he r with the walker to get the mail. I saw her from my rer view mirror as I drove away to go home for Robert. On February 3rd as usual I was up listening to my headset (usually very happy music, looking at my garden (we always had a challenge who's garden was better) and I got that dreadful call!
On march 3 I was working 3rd shift and I got a call from Isabel her waters broke and I made my way home from Texas Instruments and when I got home her mother was there. I took Isabel to the hospital and she informs me he is coming out! We got to the emergency room and they put my wife on a bed and Shaun with no problem was born!
And so today I celebrate my son turning 32! One of a very few days in my life I can call incredible! Today I think of the death of my mother, one of the saddest days in my life.
A wise man once told me "if you can have more happy days than sad ones, you're doing good in life"! I can say I do, but until this hole in my heart heals and this lump in my throat goes away sades prevails!
So Happy Birthday my only son and Mom see you soon! You look good in that vision with killer heels! Happy you can wear them again!
Dr Q
Sunday, February 12, 2012
Abilio's View: Being HIV positive a private matter
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A View From Two Queens: Being HIV Positive a private matter
A View From Two Queens: Being HIV Positive a private matter: My brother over a custody and financial battle over my mothers death has decided to pass along rumors of me being HIV positive. First its sa...
Being HIV Positive a private matter
My brother over a custody and financial battle over my mothers death has decided to pass along rumors of me being HIV positive. First its sad that it has come to this for I could say a few things about my brother and I refuse to go there. But you only have to look at me to see my status, I don't know if I could say the same about him loosing 40 lbs in weeks, but like I said I won't go there. And if I was it is nobody's business, it's a private matter!
The mysterious illness is two automobile accidents that has cause two back surgeries and 4 screws to support my spine and 4 prostate surgeries just in 2011 alone. If my brother cared it would not be mysterious. Less focus on Mom's assets and more focus on your own life that seems to be full of secrets not mysteries!
The mysterious illness is two automobile accidents that has cause two back surgeries and 4 screws to support my spine and 4 prostate surgeries just in 2011 alone. If my brother cared it would not be mysterious. Less focus on Mom's assets and more focus on your own life that seems to be full of secrets not mysteries!
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