WHEN DEATH COMES KNOCKING! a new blog starting next week!

Monday I will start a new blog that will deal with Life before Death. A number of people are living with terminal illnesses, including me. To some this comes as a surprise, to some a shock and to others, you may have figured it out.

I guess it's time and just to note, I don't want the sympathy calls, emails notes or visits. I want to be treated as I am living not dying. But there is a need in this world to talk about how people are feeling as they struggle with life not thinking of dying. A friend quoted a good saying yesterday "everyone wants to go to heaven but no-one wants to die". I am not one of those! I don't expect heaven or hell but to dust I will return sooner than most my age... and this is happening to people every day.

I think it helps to talk about it, so I will blog to see if it helps me adjust to what I have and will miss. I think most of the new generations are not afraid of dying. Maybe that explains why the death rates for younger people are higher. I actually ask for it to happen every day. This is especially true, since I lost Bam Bam. Though I know Rob would have taken good care of him, I know no-one could replace me. Taking of one’s life is a self centered selfish activity, so I used to think! Always remember the brain is an amazing organ.

I will discuss this further next week on maybe a daily or a few times a week, I have yet to decide. I am dealing with death very different than my sister. She is fighting to live! I have decided to just live! It's been 6 years that I have refused to accept it, tell anyone or accepted my fate. Just recently after the second car accident I had to come to terms with my many illnesses including the fact that I am on the death list! Only time will tell when that is and how I go. I am sure many will go before me and maybe not.

I have been a very lucky man, lived all my dreams! It is difficult to accept and it's a huge challenge for me. The most challenging aspect is that more and more I need someone to take care of me (mostly due to the auto accidents). Most of you that know me well, realize I was the one that took care of everything. Today, I can't even handle a checking account.

I still love the things in life; I no longer enjoy living it. I hope our blog will assist those who are troubled like me to look at what’s left from a different perspective.

I have always believed we don’t talk about death enough. It’s something that awaits all of us yet rarely talked about. I plan on changing this! See you Monday! It will be called "Today with Abilio, a view of life accepting death"!